many memories were brought to my attention today. that smile. those shoes. they have so much meaning: a part of my past that has made me who i am today

my bday is in 1 week

forget it Vi haha

the world is having a bad day

myself included

hope it gets better

Will helped... a lot - now theres a friend - we still keep in touch and weve been through much together back in our cinemark days.

I went to the movies with Cassie yesterday and saw it by myself haha naughty neighbors

Dmitriy has a heart... not a lot of people do

how awfully random this is

interesting day today... i keep telling myself that i would try to walk away from a fight... but today i was walking toward it and i was walked away from... guess thats a good thing, no suspension problems... but it sure would have been fun

i saw people around me that are dealing with the kinds of stuff ive already gotten over... and its been easier where im at (just a lil advice)

there is an anxiousness going on about everyone waiting for thanxgiving break...

im going to try to get over bad first impressions for Tony starting now

apologies to my dear friend, Adam... what could have gotten me to talk the way i did yesterday has no logic behind it

lesson of the day: dont mess with rumors and gossip... they are hurtful and unnecessary (and show how immature one can be)

if you see me talking bad about anyone in here, please make me aware, because this blogger gossip ive seen is so revolting, i dont want to have any part in it

i hope that the people who know me the best realize that the reason that i dont do drugs is because if you hang out with me, you would know why... and why would i need it?!?

ive lost my ability to make sense lately

PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: can i get my stuff back anytime soon?
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: hey this is jen hannah's friend

who is this
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: janelle
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: ohhhhh

PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: can you relay the message for me that im bringing her belt tomorrow for my stuff
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: heard of me? lol
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: yeahh

PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: nothing but good i imagine
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: well yeah thanx if you can tell her
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: ive been carrying this belt of hers in my backpack for about two weeks straight now
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: i heard that you get arounnd a lot easily
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PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: get around as in slut kinda way? just askin
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: lol im virgin i dont imagine how i get around except that ive had about 10 bfs in my lifetime
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: is that what was meant by that
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: ohh must be that different janelle

PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: no i think she might have been referring to me
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: yeahh sorry i thought you were someone else
EaStPaNtHeRbAbe1: noo i said that
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: yeah but ive heard around a lot of stuff comin from her mouth that isnt exactly the truth like our example above ^ so im just sayin its quite possible im the same janelle that goes with the untrue rumor
PuNkRoXcHiCk1203: but then again all this stuff that ive heard of the "she said" catagory is just a rumor also so i cant say for sure that she said all of those things (except for the things i overhear) haha

i started emptying my thoughts onto my profile and thats didnt work all that well... cause i ran out of room really quick so here it is:

you are either in my life, or you arent. ill be there for you forever, if you chose to let me. if you decide to be one of those who fall in and out of it as you please, you are not a part of me and maybe i wish you never were... for those who have stuck with me... i respect, love, and cherish you, for you are a true friend... you know who you are.

thank you for those who have taught me that nothing is gained from staying in one spot. its even been a painful process but now i know how to move on...

i hate you... unless you prove me wrong
just the way i am, get over it

dedications:

you... amaze me with how much you genuinely care. we are good friends and will be so forever. i hope our friendship gets deeper everyday.

ahh what a break from the outside world, and how very genuine. and how highly i think of you.

you've taught me a lil more about this world we call reality. i genuinely care about you and i love our convos. you are so intriguing.

... wow... im so glad im yours and your mine. i appreciate you.

a break from reality... and yet i think you keep mein check a lot. and you arent ever afraid to tell me what i do wrong... its refreshing. im only as much of a mystery to you as you are to me.

ahh life is rough. and you deserve so much more i see you recieving. and through it all, i wanna be there for you. when nobody was there for me, you offered a listening ear.